Blame it all on that idiot in my chest

Nowadays, it's so easy to blame everything on the idiot in my chest, aka the cancer...any pain ,discomfort, flu, cold, sore, whatever, ''because of the chemo'' = ''because of the cancer''...it's so easy...but how sure am i? anything wrong might be due to another problem, not the cancer...for now, maybe it's logical to blame the idiot, but how about later, when will i know that cancer no longer affect my health, that it's gone, completely, together with the effects it comes with...now that i'm considered in remission, how long more can i blame cancer?

Moley matter

I went to see the dermatologist as told by Dr Lim, he is Dr Lee, a nice guy. He told me that the mole on my scalp's most prob's just a mole, but have to look out anyway, since my ma claimed it's got bigger...so see him 4 months later.........so meanwhile, i will just take a photo snap of it for comparison, just wonder how am i gonna get a proper look at moley when my hair's grown...

Simulation Day

Today i went for simulation of radiotheraphy, basically a trial run for radiation. It was to determine & to mark up the position of the body at which they will zap later on, on the real sessions. They CT scanned me, again, which means drinking like toilet bowl again, & tattooed 4 tiny green dots on my chest area as markings, yea man, i am cool , i got tattooes, not 1 but 4 man...................................and draw lines with green markers, the radiologist told me tried not to scrub it when taking shower & tried not to get it washed off till my next session which is exactly next week...how the hell am i gonna do that? what if i exercise & sweat, & now there's this green line stretching in the middle of my chest all the way down to just above my navel...hmmmmmmmmmmm.......